Held On Tight

I had a moment
held tight in my hand
had to let it go
just couldn’t understand

Had a thought
just inside my head
saw it fly away
and disappear instead

How many times will I suffer this fate, this
misalignment between me and the rest of the world
in the end I don’t mind as much as I miss your
smile, the way your lips would stretch and curl

How often will I think this, this single thought, the
one where what was…really wasn’t after all
knowing it was my fault that I couldn’t love enough
as summer faded into the long cold fall

I can’t help thinking although I know I shouldn’t, while
the past sits there untouched, no matter what I try
all the wishes the hopes the dreams and fortunes spent
nothing changes even as the tears fade and dry

I had a moment
held tight in my hand
had to let it go
just couldn’t understand

Had a thought
just inside my head
saw it fly away
and disappear instead

Knowing is not enough when it’s doing that counts, that
means what it means when it means anything at all
and I knew but I didn’t do when doing was called for
throughout that ending summer and long cold fall

She was the thought the dream the idea of something, the
moment that I held too tight too tight in my hand
and I let her go like the thought that drifts into nothingness
and finally now, finally now is when I understand

I had a moment
held tight in my hand
Had a thought
just inside my head

and I held on so tight that I let her go instead
I held on so tight that I let her go instead


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