I want to lose
daily weekly
monthly…I think
it is important
envious big and
loud I want to
lose like all, like
none but ever and
forever I want to
have something
before nothing,
before its gone…

I want to lose
with flair with
panache with all
the force weight
of all times I’ve
ever thought of
all the moments
that conspired
to defeat me to
create me, to pull
me from the edge
of now

I want to lose
so I know what
winning having,
what knowing is
when all of that
is less than
always less than
knowing nothing
I want to lose
in order to win to
find, I want to
lose.