ashamed grateful terrified happy

I become more than myself
when, with fear, with questions, with hesitation
I try to create
a new world life place time
and I am my own
father
seeking a new answer, a new
path, a new motivation
to breathe, to wonder, to
live
I transform the last question asked
into the next
moment of time…frozen
hanging as a dust mote, suspended
by trepidation but also
illuminated by the
light
of reason,
& truth…
I see who I am when
I cannot
see who I am:
a mirror held sideways, bent toward
the future, slightly skewed
toward the past, I see
myself now
through the eyes of all who know me
and I am amazed
ashamed grateful terrified happy and ultimately
here
and
now.

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