I awake and open my eyes lying sideways on the bed
digital numbers tell things I don’t want to know
muted sounds seep under doorsills…around window frames
tell me more
things I don’t want to know but
will anyway
I remember my life; looking at it like a child looks at a new toy
unaware how to play with it, not knowing which button to push
knowing it is to be played with; I push buttons
I push and I pull tabs
slide switches and replace batteries
shake it listening for internal noise, for what makes “it” what it is
The old life, hung up in a closet
or was it simply tossed on the floor?
lost its impact, its shine, its memories and faded
the color drained by the sun of time…and now;
a new life all spic and span and…just new…untried, untested…
with different buttons,
switches
and
tabs,
different noise when shook
try it out, try it on, run in it, laugh, cry, wander the city, get it dirty, wash it off
damage it and watch it repair itself
a new life all comfy and cozy
strange fitting in places but
adapting inside
seeing newly from here to the outside world,
different, not good or bad
different
poked, prodded and pulled
I stand up from bed, from sleeping too long
digital numbers don’t tell nearly half the story
I look forward
to those things I don’t want to know and the sounds
once muted,
fuzzy and seeping through cracks in the shell of my house
I hear
and want to hear more and more and more…
…buttons,
switches,
tabs;
all await
being pushed
slid
pulled and…
a new life
awaits
as I wake up.